Sunday, August 29, 2010

My 2 cents.

Hey beloved people (yeap, even the haters a.k.a keyboard warriors). I know I've been neglecting my blog for soooooo long. I don't even know what I am doing these days, between going out with friends and doing my Masters' thesis, I'm basically jobless & carefree. Nice huh?

I'm going to warn you, this post may offend some people and it may be perceived as "sensational". I've been tweeting about these issues that I'm about to write lately, and I know I've been annoying my followers with countless rants. Sorry dear followers, thanks for keeping up with the Stephen. Haha. I love you all.

Recently, a friend of mine tagged me in a video, where this very controversial blogger, Raja Petra discussed about Islam and its followers. I'm not going to further elaborate on the video, you just have to view it yourself, ok? Here's the link, I'm too lazy to embed it, Internet's damn slow. I must say, he has a point, a point that infuriated many people, especially the government. If you think, really think, about it, isn't it's true? There he was, a Muslim, yet he was discussing the very matter that many would want him to be sent away to jail. 

It's a couple of days away from Independence Day, do you feel the heat? I agree with what Raja Petra had said in the video; it's really the PEOPLE, NOT the religion itself. Religions are sacred and religions teach us the very basic as well as the same principles: Be kind to others & do good things. Which religion teaches us to do bad things, you tell me. My judgments may be a little skewed, but what I'm writing is what I'm feeling inside. 

What irks you? For me, it's Malay girls who are pretentious. You can curse me now for saying that, but it's true. I've seen my fair share of them who take drugs, smoke, date people's husbands/boyfriends but say they're doing nothing wrong & the ones that fill Kuching's Waterfront searching for boys. I've even spoken to an acquaintance of mine who said drugs are halal for them, but alcohol is haram. I was like, HELLO!! I also know many girls who wear tudung and yet they are actually worse than those who don't wear tudung.

Many take pride in dating people's husbands/boyfriends. Wake up, girls. Really, wake up. It's not right to date someone who belongs to another woman, especially the ones that have children waiting for them at home. It's also not right to sleep around and tell people you are a good girl. Like what I have said in my Facebook, a good girl will never tell the whole world that she is a good girl. 

You see, it's really the people. Not only that, there have been times where I witnessed shameful circumstances in cafes that I have been to. The latest one happened just yesterday while I was dining at SCR for dinner. This family had just finished praying to break fast, and I noticed a boy carrying donation tin for St. John's Ambulance was making his rounds around SCR. He had this huge grin on his face, and he approached the family's table slowly. I assumed he noticed the coins & a few ringgit notes that the woman placed on the table, but when he stood there asking for donations, the man quickly waved his hand indicating No and his wife shook her head. The boy left for the next table.

That very situation has happened a few times in front of me. Is this 1Malaysia? How would their children interpret that very situation? If you had the money to eat at SCR, surely 20cents wouldn't be missed from your wallet for donations?

Another thing is that, if the people are acting all sorts of wrongs, wouldn't the public assume negative judgments on them? Is it not? People are scared to go to Kuching's Golden Triangle now because of the alarming increased number of snatch & rob cases there. Shameful is also those who actually had the courage to ask the non Muslims when they are going to convert to Islam. 

Whether you like it or not, it's the people that need some major adjustment in their minds & attitudes, the religion itself is sacred. Since it's the Independence day week, I also would like to point out that Sarawak and Sabah could have been far richer if we stood alone, like Singapore and Brunei. :) We also want better roads and basic necessities like electricity & water. We want TESCO, IKEA, Domino's and other international brands to be opened here. 

To me, 1Malaysia is a mere notion, whereby the people understood it, but could never really practiced it. Happy Independence Day, Malaysia. Looks like we have a looooong journey ahead. :)

Dear readers, if you have any comments, please leave it on my comment box as I will disable my chatbox. It seems some people are just too coward to come forward & introduce themselves before they leave rude comments. They just forget that I can delete their comments in my chatbox. If you're brave enough like how you 'look' like through your words, I suggest you introduce yourself first, because by being anonymous, you're just another loser. 

Anyway, 30th August is my dearest boyfriend's birthday. So to my beloved Uncle Theo, happy 23rd birthday! :D 

I asked him what he wants to do on his birthday, he said, "A cheesecake." T_T

Okuk sikien yoh, oni yoh la'an ndai masa birthday yoh. Doik jawab soalan. Haha.

Toodles. Will try to write more soon! :D

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Miss Borneo Tourism Queen International 2010.

I don't know much about other beauty pageants, but this one is in the top of my Most Emotional beauty pageant list. Us Sarawakian girls went through so many difficulties that put our inner strength to test. The pageant was emotionally draining, up to the point where we were willing to buy our own flight tickets back and quit the pageant.

Charity Fashion show at Hyatt.

In casual outfit.

I also received calls from my Dean and Deputy Dean regarding my Masters, which required me to meet them personally. It was absolutely emotional for all of us, and we decided that enough is enough. So, that was why some of you read from my Twitter that I quit the pageant. Yes, we did quit the pageant and we went back to our hometowns, but for my case, I went to Bintulu to meet up with my boyfriend there.

In the sponsored wedding gown.

In our own black dresses. I bought this dress online, all thanks to Marciana who helped me to order this! :D

However, we decided to come back because we had so much love and support from the Sabah Tourism Board people, as they gave us their assurance that everything would be well taken care of. We trusted them, so we came back to Sabah. We were greeted by the STB people at the airport along with bouquets of flowers, which made us felt so appreciated and loved. 

So, during the pageant week, we went to Kundasang for the homestay program at Walai Tokou Homestay. Kundasang is damn cold, just like Genting during rainy season! I envy the people there, as they don't need any fan or airconds to keep them cool. We were shivering like crazy when it started to rain. I love that place. We danced and sang the night away as part of the program.

At Pekan Nabalu. That's Mount Kinabalu behind me!

Crazy pose!


The performance by the Walai Tokou's band. They performed in RMWF 2009.

Doing the sumayau dance.

Teaching them a few Ngajat steps. :D


After the Kundasang trip, we had a photoshoot at Benny's studio, which theme was 30's style. Our hair and makeup were done according to that decade's hottest trend. Then, came the long awaited diving day. It was the International Cleanup day at Mamutik and Manukan Island. We planted baby corals as well as picked bags of wastes thrown into the sea. I was excited like crazy, because I could dive!

Mr Clement Lee presenting us with the certificate for the program.

Look at the wastes we found underwater!


Peace to all the marine life!

The grand finale night was held on the 6th August at Hyatt's Kimanis Ballroom. I was relieved that the night finally came and that simply meant, I'd be going home the next day. We were excited that the everything would end soon, but sad at the same time because we'd part ways after that. I grew to love Sabah and the people in a month, and I was kind of reluctant to leave Sabah. I managed to do a little shopping before leaving to Kuching with Chloe and Samantha.

God, I love them so much. 

Pre judging on the 5th.

My dress was sponsored by Pearl Bridal Studio. Much love!

First round, traditional costume. Ooooo HA!

Second round, casual outfit.

Third round, evening dress.

I won the Miss Friendly title. Haha.

I was so happy as if I won the Miss Borneo title. haha!

With gorgeous peeps!

After the whole thing ended, Chloe, Dewina, Sam and I spent the morning eating at Upperstar and shared stories. For us first timers, this pageant really left a huge impact on our lives and it actually shaped our characters indirectly. 

Nevertheless, I'm thankful for the opportunity and the people in it. There are some dramas that ensued after the pageant, you can read that on Miss Borneo's fanpage. It just shocks me how vulgar people can be, especially at young age. 

It also scares me of what people are made of when they say, "Everyone thought I deserve to win." It's very upsetting. It's really not the kind of thing to say out loud, but I guess it's the way they were brought up that led them to think that way. 

So, to all those who are thinking of joining any beauty pageants, make sure you're tough enough to accept criticisms and to deal with people of different backgrounds. Beauty pageants are not that glamorous on the inside. It's like going to war, only the battlefield is surrounded by glitters and all things that sparkle.

I can guarantee you it's made of Gossip Girls and also Pretty Little Liars, as well as maybe future Desperate Housewives. :D


OMG! It's been soooo long since I last updated my blog. So many things have happened and I've been so busy with the beauty pageant. I'm glad to tell you guys that I won Miss Friendly title, and boy, is that title cute or not! :) I didn't expect to win anything, much less that title. LOL. It was my first pageant, and I expected nothing from it. 

It has been a very emotional month for me, and it's safe to say, that pageant is my first and last pageant. I was skeptical of joining any beauty pageants because I know, it's not all green on the other side. It may look glamorous and grand on the outside, but once you're inside, you can be suffocated and overwhelmed by the pageant and the people. I gave this pageant a chance, because I had nothing to do after finishing my degree, and I had nothing to lose.

After a dive at Pulau Suluq. 30 minutes felt like 5 minutes. 

I'm thankful that I joined this pageant, because I learned how to dive. I've always wanted to dive and explore the sea world. It was the main highlight of the pageant. So, now I am a certified diver!

With my dive master, Evan. Checking our equipments.

Posing underwater. haha

Come here Nemo!

Look at my face! Haha.


I was scared at first, as I felt as if I'd drown underwater or be so helpless. During our first dive, while descending, my ears felt a sudden sharp pain. I forgot that I needed to equalize so that my ears wouldn't hurt. I panicked, and quickly pressed my BCD's inflation button. WOOOSHH! I ascended like a rocket to the surface. My dive master followed behind and asked me what's wrong. That was the first time I panicked underwater. 

Sting ray!

The second time was when the instructor asked us to fill our mask with water and empty it by dodging our heads back and exhaled really hard to squeeze the water out. I hate doing it, until today. I panicked when I accidentally breathed in salt water and my eyes felt really sore. So, yeah, I ascended to the surface like a rocket, again. 

Certified diver! OWHH YEAHH!

All of that happened on my first dive. I was like, God, I don't want to do this anymore. But, I eventually got the hang of it, and I enjoyed every single minute of diving. I'm now addicted to it! Life underwater is so much more peaceful, and the sea world is just so awesome. Too bad people are so ignorant and selfish, because there are so many wastes underwater! People even throw school bags into the sea. Ever heard of rubbish bins??

A day out with Dee! Lunch at One Borneo. 

After a long shoot at Hyatt, we had dinner at Waterfront. With the gorgeous view of the sea and Pulau Gaya.

Dinner with Sabah Tourism Board people. :) I love them.

Video shoot at Cock and Bull Bar.

Flowers from STB. Awwww

Me singing Feels like home by Chantal Kreviazuk on Talent Night. 

With the winner of Best Talent as well as Miss Borneo Tourism 2010, Elaine Lee!

The diving part was fun. The talent night was memorable, because after the whole thing ended, a few Westerners approached me and told me that my singing was so graceful that they won't ever forget it. I remember the exact words one of them said to me, "Your voice was so lovely, and I will never forget your voice when you sang that song." I felt so touched. It meant so much more as they were total strangers, and they actually told me how they felt about my performance even though they didn't know me.

Who wouldn't feel honored? :) I have posted the video on Youtube. I was recovering from fever and bad cough that day. I drank so much water that I peed so often. T_T

Anyway, I'll continue in the next post. This one is too long. :P


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